November 2
Friday

Why does the world have to be so image conscious? One thing I hate about Cambodia is how they openly say what in on their mind. They have no sense of others feeling. When they think you fat they will simply say it. Take this for instance; G1 (friend of ours; meet through Rithy) said I look like heavy weight champion because I was wearing shorts and a sweatshirt. Info, I just got done playing volleyball and didn’t have time to change from my stinky cloths so I just throw on a sweatshirt. At first I didn’t understand what G1 was trying to say to me, and still couldn’t until Katrina told me what he said. I was so mad and irritated. Oh! And tonight when I got on the moto with Rithy and Ly Chard (Le-Char) the dorm students were making comments. I don’t have to understand their language to know what they are suggesting. All the way home I held back the tears. I didn’t want Rithy bugging me wondering what was wrong.
Not only am I white, but I’m fat too; definitely a head turner for the Khmers. Over here they have one body image; small. Sometimes I wish I could be skinny like all the other girls, but at the same time why would I want to be just like everyone else. I don’t know! But I can tell you that if people keep suggest comments to my weight I will go bulimic. How easy it could be to be the same. I know many people that can stop anytime they want. I think I could do that. I don’t know I’m just really pissed about people commenting about my weight. It’s as if they can’t accept other shapes.
Ok! Just to let you know so none of you worry about me. I’m not actually going to go bulimic. I know it’s a stupid idea and wouldn’t ever do it. ok, bye bye now. Love ya!
P.S. we got our wireless back tonight. I just hope it lasts for awhile.