November 19
Monday
I have come up with a new punishment! I am pretty excited about this one. It’s hard and the best part the kids HATE it! Ok, I have the culprit come up to the front of class and stick their arms straight out to their sides while I put two math books on top of their arms; one book for the girls though (weak). My first victim was Raksa, he is usually the first to try these experiment. If I can get him to hate them then I have succeed in making up a new punishment. This week we only have to school till Wednesday. We have teacher’s meeting however on Thursday. I am actually going to start mine Wednesday night so I can be done earlier on Thursday. I have to tell the parents all about their student. For most of my kids the news will be good, but for some their will be spanking after the meeting. JK! Actually I don’t know. I hope not!
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Sports day and room mates
November 18
Sunday
Sports DAY! It was so much fun. The kids are so funny. Just imagine a whole bunch of Asians trying to play tug-a-war. Everyone wanted me on their team because I am so strong. I didn’t know whether to take that as a compliment or insult; never the less it was so much fun. I got really wet for the water fight. I will post pictures online hopefully this week. We lost our wireless connection completely now. The people figured out we were stealing and password protected the connection. Believe me I have been trying every night to crack the code, but it doesn’t help when they can speak Khmer. If anyone of you know ways to by pass the password PLEASE let me know. You will have lot of love from this end of the world sent to you. Matter of fact this is the first time I have been on the internet since it has gone out. Which was maybe a week and half ago. I just don’t like to pay for internet connection when I can get it free. I refuse to go to the internet shop down the road. It’s hot and sticky, I would much rather pay for a nice cooling drink from T&C (tea and coffee) down the road. They have free wireless and nice couches to relax on. I get a taro smoothie for $1.50.
So, you know how people are more independent. Well I didn’t realize how independent I was really was. Heather (room mate) is so reliant on her family and friends it’s annoying. She is always complaining how she hates it here and just wants one friend to understand. I have tried to be her friend, but you know what I don’t want to be around a complaining box. ANNOYING! In the beginning I had sympathy for her, but now I just want to slap her and tell her to grow up. Life is not a walk in the park and living in Cambodia is not the islands. It’s freaking hard and you’re guaranteed problems. NO! You know what? It doesn’t matter where you live your still going to have problems.
I love it here in Cambodian; yes I have hard days but who doesn’t? I really don’t want to go home. I guess I don’t like a routine to much. I want change in my life. If I could I would just travel all over the world. I love to experience other cultures and see how people live in other parts of the world. I am all ready thinking about when I have to leave. I just don’t want to have to do that. I love all my friends up here. They make it worth every tear, sweat and penny. I just love being here. If I could change one thing; the weather, I would like to see hot and cold. To tell you the truth I’m starting to get use to the weather. The other week I was wearing pants.
Well I hope all is well at home. Please pray for my Grandpa Bill. I just found out he has prostate cancer. Keep him in your prayers. Love You All!
Sunday
Sports DAY! It was so much fun. The kids are so funny. Just imagine a whole bunch of Asians trying to play tug-a-war. Everyone wanted me on their team because I am so strong. I didn’t know whether to take that as a compliment or insult; never the less it was so much fun. I got really wet for the water fight. I will post pictures online hopefully this week. We lost our wireless connection completely now. The people figured out we were stealing and password protected the connection. Believe me I have been trying every night to crack the code, but it doesn’t help when they can speak Khmer. If anyone of you know ways to by pass the password PLEASE let me know. You will have lot of love from this end of the world sent to you. Matter of fact this is the first time I have been on the internet since it has gone out. Which was maybe a week and half ago. I just don’t like to pay for internet connection when I can get it free. I refuse to go to the internet shop down the road. It’s hot and sticky, I would much rather pay for a nice cooling drink from T&C (tea and coffee) down the road. They have free wireless and nice couches to relax on. I get a taro smoothie for $1.50.
So, you know how people are more independent. Well I didn’t realize how independent I was really was. Heather (room mate) is so reliant on her family and friends it’s annoying. She is always complaining how she hates it here and just wants one friend to understand. I have tried to be her friend, but you know what I don’t want to be around a complaining box. ANNOYING! In the beginning I had sympathy for her, but now I just want to slap her and tell her to grow up. Life is not a walk in the park and living in Cambodia is not the islands. It’s freaking hard and you’re guaranteed problems. NO! You know what? It doesn’t matter where you live your still going to have problems.
I love it here in Cambodian; yes I have hard days but who doesn’t? I really don’t want to go home. I guess I don’t like a routine to much. I want change in my life. If I could I would just travel all over the world. I love to experience other cultures and see how people live in other parts of the world. I am all ready thinking about when I have to leave. I just don’t want to have to do that. I love all my friends up here. They make it worth every tear, sweat and penny. I just love being here. If I could change one thing; the weather, I would like to see hot and cold. To tell you the truth I’m starting to get use to the weather. The other week I was wearing pants.
Well I hope all is well at home. Please pray for my Grandpa Bill. I just found out he has prostate cancer. Keep him in your prayers. Love You All!
PMS!!!
November 17
Saturday
Thursday was the worst day ever. My kids just didn’t listen and on top of that I was PMS-ing. I seriously just wanted to ring every last ones neck. Maybe they were not any worse than usual and since I was PMS-ing I didn’t have any patience. I was feeling bad toward the end of the day because most of them flunked the tests and I usually hint the answer to them. Yeema didn’t seem too happy either. So never the less I didn’t make them cookies last week. On Friday they were confused why I didn’t have “cookie” (they use cookie for treat) for them, I just told them “bad boys and girls!” I will hopefully make them “cookies” next week. Hey! Next week we don’t have school Thursday or Friday. Its water festival (Buddhist celebration), I am excited about it. Yeema and I are going to the river and checking it out. There is a lot of thief Yeema says so I will just keep my money close to my “heart” Oh, but starting Wednesday night next week I have parent teacher meeting. I will start them right after school @ 4:14 to 6:00 p.m., and continue them Thursday morning @ 8 – 11:30 a.m. or so. I hope they go really well. I am going to have to tell the parents their child is not going to pass if they don’t pay attention in class. Most of the parent should be happy about the grades because I really didn’t know what I was doing the first part of the quarter and just gave every single one 100 percent. I was on top of things the 2nd half the quarter.
Today I am wearing my first tailored outfit. I go to the Russian market sometimes and there is a store called Rajana. It’s run by women off the street. Rajana helps homeless people by providing jobs and fundraising. The people are really nice and some know English. Anyway, I had a skirt, blouse, and dress made. It only cost $35 which includes the fabric and time. The clothes fit me perfectly and I love them so much. I will be visiting their again to get more clothes made. I will post pictures online sometime.
Saturday
Thursday was the worst day ever. My kids just didn’t listen and on top of that I was PMS-ing. I seriously just wanted to ring every last ones neck. Maybe they were not any worse than usual and since I was PMS-ing I didn’t have any patience. I was feeling bad toward the end of the day because most of them flunked the tests and I usually hint the answer to them. Yeema didn’t seem too happy either. So never the less I didn’t make them cookies last week. On Friday they were confused why I didn’t have “cookie” (they use cookie for treat) for them, I just told them “bad boys and girls!” I will hopefully make them “cookies” next week. Hey! Next week we don’t have school Thursday or Friday. Its water festival (Buddhist celebration), I am excited about it. Yeema and I are going to the river and checking it out. There is a lot of thief Yeema says so I will just keep my money close to my “heart” Oh, but starting Wednesday night next week I have parent teacher meeting. I will start them right after school @ 4:14 to 6:00 p.m., and continue them Thursday morning @ 8 – 11:30 a.m. or so. I hope they go really well. I am going to have to tell the parents their child is not going to pass if they don’t pay attention in class. Most of the parent should be happy about the grades because I really didn’t know what I was doing the first part of the quarter and just gave every single one 100 percent. I was on top of things the 2nd half the quarter.
Today I am wearing my first tailored outfit. I go to the Russian market sometimes and there is a store called Rajana. It’s run by women off the street. Rajana helps homeless people by providing jobs and fundraising. The people are really nice and some know English. Anyway, I had a skirt, blouse, and dress made. It only cost $35 which includes the fabric and time. The clothes fit me perfectly and I love them so much. I will be visiting their again to get more clothes made. I will post pictures online sometime.
The class against Sreynut
November 13
Tuesday
Today was a pretty good day for the most part. Yeema was late today, but I forgive her because she has to drive through the traffic and who know how long it will take you to get anywhere. I have found if you want to get anywhere fast you take a moto. Although they are laughed at in the states because usually it means you don’t have enough money for a car, but here in Cambodia their “the bomb!” I myself have been thinking about getting one. The only think that keeps me from getting one are the driving skills of these people. Seriously there are really no laws on the road, OH; big = right away. But I tell you what, moto’s can weave in and out of traffic like a rat does to miss traps. LOL!
Katrina and I went to Rajana to get the clothes I got tailored. I was pretty excited out it. I have never been tailored. I just went in and told them how I want it to look and the fabric, response, “No problem.” I got a dress for Sabbath, skirt, and a blouse to match the skirt. The dress is in black and turquoise with flowers; the skirt is brown (favorite color) with little white flowers at the bottom and a white blouse (sleeveless). I’m pretty excited to see if it fits right. Today was the day to pick them up, but we got there just after it closed. I just figured I won’t fight the clock through out the week and will just pick them up on Friday after school time. I will save money and energy that way.
During class today I had kids tattle-tell on each other. I found out that everyone say Sreynut has a demon inside, she is crazy, needs to go to the hospital, and is stupid. My kids seem to think its ok to make fun of others. Tell you what! That is not going to happen in my class if I have knowledge of it (language barrier). Sarat came to Yeema and said he saw Popata (sit by Sreynut) pinch, hit, slap, laugh, scratch, curse (demon inside, stupid. Not like you’re a little bitch). I was so shocked that Popata would do that. So I called her over to my desk and asked her:
Liz: Have you been hit, laughing, ect Sreynut?
Popata: No!
Liz: If you’re lying to me your going to be in lots of trouble. I will call your Dad and make him take you home. You only have one more chance to tell me the truth. Repeated question.
Popata: Yes.
Liz: Why?
Popata: I don’t know. (classic)
Liz: Well, until you tell me why you did though things to Sreynut you are going to sit at the back of classroom facing the wall until you do.
Popata: ok.
Now, just keep in mind that Yeema was translating for me the whole time. Popata was really mad at me for the rest of the day, but you know what?! I don’t want her thinking she can get away with that. When I was in elementary other kids could be really mean. Since this is a Buddhist country they believe when something is wrong with you there is a devil inside of you. They do some really whacky stuff to get rid of their “sickness.” For instance, head ach are treated by dipping a medal circle in to hot oil and putting it on your forehead. HOT! When I first got here I noticed people with 3 huge red dots on their forehead and wondered; now I know. JC informs me in a lot of these things. By the way the 3 dots go away after sometime. Anyway, back to Sreynut and Popata. I just don’t want other kids thinking they can get away with making fun of others. In Asia they just tell you how it is; blunt. They don’t seem to know about good timing.
So do you think I was to rough on Popata? She will be there until she tells me why she does that to Sreynut. I don’t care if it takes all week. I will just make sure to ask her frequently. One positive thing today, I found Popata works better when she is mad. She just does as I say no questions. I just almost want to keep her mad because then I wouldn’t have to chase after her all day; JOKING!
Sad thing, the internet is totally out for the year (wireless). Heather tried to connect this afternoon and found its not password protected. So sorry if I don’t answer your e-mail or myspace comments quickly, I don’t like to pay for the internet at the internet shop because of many reasons. But I just might have to know or I will just go to Tea and Coffee once a week. We will see.
Tuesday
Today was a pretty good day for the most part. Yeema was late today, but I forgive her because she has to drive through the traffic and who know how long it will take you to get anywhere. I have found if you want to get anywhere fast you take a moto. Although they are laughed at in the states because usually it means you don’t have enough money for a car, but here in Cambodia their “the bomb!” I myself have been thinking about getting one. The only think that keeps me from getting one are the driving skills of these people. Seriously there are really no laws on the road, OH; big = right away. But I tell you what, moto’s can weave in and out of traffic like a rat does to miss traps. LOL!
Katrina and I went to Rajana to get the clothes I got tailored. I was pretty excited out it. I have never been tailored. I just went in and told them how I want it to look and the fabric, response, “No problem.” I got a dress for Sabbath, skirt, and a blouse to match the skirt. The dress is in black and turquoise with flowers; the skirt is brown (favorite color) with little white flowers at the bottom and a white blouse (sleeveless). I’m pretty excited to see if it fits right. Today was the day to pick them up, but we got there just after it closed. I just figured I won’t fight the clock through out the week and will just pick them up on Friday after school time. I will save money and energy that way.
During class today I had kids tattle-tell on each other. I found out that everyone say Sreynut has a demon inside, she is crazy, needs to go to the hospital, and is stupid. My kids seem to think its ok to make fun of others. Tell you what! That is not going to happen in my class if I have knowledge of it (language barrier). Sarat came to Yeema and said he saw Popata (sit by Sreynut) pinch, hit, slap, laugh, scratch, curse (demon inside, stupid. Not like you’re a little bitch). I was so shocked that Popata would do that. So I called her over to my desk and asked her:
Liz: Have you been hit, laughing, ect Sreynut?
Popata: No!
Liz: If you’re lying to me your going to be in lots of trouble. I will call your Dad and make him take you home. You only have one more chance to tell me the truth. Repeated question.
Popata: Yes.
Liz: Why?
Popata: I don’t know. (classic)
Liz: Well, until you tell me why you did though things to Sreynut you are going to sit at the back of classroom facing the wall until you do.
Popata: ok.
Now, just keep in mind that Yeema was translating for me the whole time. Popata was really mad at me for the rest of the day, but you know what?! I don’t want her thinking she can get away with that. When I was in elementary other kids could be really mean. Since this is a Buddhist country they believe when something is wrong with you there is a devil inside of you. They do some really whacky stuff to get rid of their “sickness.” For instance, head ach are treated by dipping a medal circle in to hot oil and putting it on your forehead. HOT! When I first got here I noticed people with 3 huge red dots on their forehead and wondered; now I know. JC informs me in a lot of these things. By the way the 3 dots go away after sometime. Anyway, back to Sreynut and Popata. I just don’t want other kids thinking they can get away with making fun of others. In Asia they just tell you how it is; blunt. They don’t seem to know about good timing.
So do you think I was to rough on Popata? She will be there until she tells me why she does that to Sreynut. I don’t care if it takes all week. I will just make sure to ask her frequently. One positive thing today, I found Popata works better when she is mad. She just does as I say no questions. I just almost want to keep her mad because then I wouldn’t have to chase after her all day; JOKING!
Sad thing, the internet is totally out for the year (wireless). Heather tried to connect this afternoon and found its not password protected. So sorry if I don’t answer your e-mail or myspace comments quickly, I don’t like to pay for the internet at the internet shop because of many reasons. But I just might have to know or I will just go to Tea and Coffee once a week. We will see.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Laos boys, Rithy, and the duck
November 4
Sunday
Today was a pretty good day. The whole day it was windy and the sun stayed away. Today was the first day I wore pants and didn’t get hot at all; loved it! Also today I finally got the slip from the post office that I received a package from home. The package actually arrived the 23 of October, but just got the notice, kind of annoying, but at least I can get it now. Katrina and I are going to the post office tomorrow right after school and retrieve the packages and letters.
I finally feel like the Lao boys are relaxed around me. Last night I went to watch a movie at Rithy’s (like usual), but this time the Lao boys didn’t want me to leave. So I stayed for one more movies, but ended up falling asleep. I woke up to the Lao boys dancing around in their boxers. Kind of weird, but funny at the same time, they were not going to wake me up and wanted me to stay the night. I know they wouldn’t of done anything, but I’m a teacher maybe not theirs, but still a teacher. I feel funny around them sometimes because I’m an authority figure and still the same age. Sing Khom age 22 (sing com), Seng por (sing por) age 20, Khom Pie age 20 (com pie), novh age 17 (noah), Porm age 20 and dream age 20. I love each and every one of them. I will write about them more individually later, but just for the record Sing Khom and Seng por are me favorite.
Speaking of the Lao boys they made Katrina and I lunch today. They went out and bought a duck and lots of other stuff and fed us. I never had duck before and was kind of curious. Sing por laughed at me because I never had duck before. I was hesitant at first because I’ve never seen a duck de-feathered before (Sing por doing the deed) kind of gross, but interesting. There food is so good, but really spicy. Every time they invite me over for food they make special dishes for me because I can’t eat the spicy stuff, although its still spicy. Lao’s just laugh at me! LOL! Seriously my nose runs and my ears are on fire; never had this happen before so I’m very careful how much a take. I will away start out very little and try different things to see what I can handle and what I can’t. You know for boys their freaking good cooks. I seriously love though boys. When Katrina and I went to the beach for the week we just kept thinking about how much we miss the Laos boys and wanted them to come. They don’t have much money so we were thinking of treating them to a weekend at the beach with us. We would pay for the lodging and some of the food, but they would have to pay for the bus ticket and part of the food.
I have first quarter testing this week and hope my kids pass with flying colors. I mostly worried about the lucky five, although Chimnol and Bunthorng are doing great. I thing they have improved a lot since moved up to the front of class. Try Try Net and Sryenut are the same, but at least Try Try Net doesn’t cry when I ask her to write her own name. I think they have learned that I don’t fall for the crying trick. Just because they cry doesn’t mean they get out of school work. Popata is still the same though. She doesn’t pay to much attention in class and that’s hurting her grades. I tried to talk to her dad, but be doesn’t seem to have much control over Popata. He is an engineer and works a lot. He use to pick her up everyday, but now sends and uncle or something. Popata’s dad seems to care if she is doing well, but is not putting forth the effort. I can’t do this all on my own, the parents need to help the child too.
Oh! I think I’m going to change my major to elementary education. I have been thinking about his for sometime and really enjoy what I’m doing here and would love to continue when I come home. All my high school classmates said one day I would become a teacher, but I never thought I would consider it. what do you think?
Oh! and also I got to talk to Gatz last night on the phone really briefly. It was so nice to hear a familiar voice. I miss her so much. We are planning on going to Hong Kong for Christmas for maybe I will go to South Korea. I don’t know, but I do know I don’t want to stay in Phenom Pehn. If I’m going to be on the other side of the world then I better travel. That reminds me Katrina and I are planning on going home though Europe, Paris, Italy and France. I don’t know if we will go to all the places but we will go to at least 3 for sure. I would love to see Paris, OH and Italy. I want to ride in the skinny boats down the water to different shops; FUN!
Random thing; Rithy wanted to hold my hand today. I didn’t know what to say so I just made up accuse to hold my pants because they were to “long.” Even though I was holding my pants he still locked his arm in mine. He is really strange. He has asked me to go on walks with him and get dinner, but I always say I’m to busy. Usually when girls say that they are hinting to the guy, “No,” but to Rithy he tries several times more. I wander how many times I’m going to have to turn him down before he gets the clue. Oh! Just to let you know over here if the guys likes the girl he will ask them to go on walks or such, so don’t think he going to kill me or something.
I will write about he Laos boys later because they are so funny and each one has a different relationship with me. Worth writing about.
Sunday
Today was a pretty good day. The whole day it was windy and the sun stayed away. Today was the first day I wore pants and didn’t get hot at all; loved it! Also today I finally got the slip from the post office that I received a package from home. The package actually arrived the 23 of October, but just got the notice, kind of annoying, but at least I can get it now. Katrina and I are going to the post office tomorrow right after school and retrieve the packages and letters.
I finally feel like the Lao boys are relaxed around me. Last night I went to watch a movie at Rithy’s (like usual), but this time the Lao boys didn’t want me to leave. So I stayed for one more movies, but ended up falling asleep. I woke up to the Lao boys dancing around in their boxers. Kind of weird, but funny at the same time, they were not going to wake me up and wanted me to stay the night. I know they wouldn’t of done anything, but I’m a teacher maybe not theirs, but still a teacher. I feel funny around them sometimes because I’m an authority figure and still the same age. Sing Khom age 22 (sing com), Seng por (sing por) age 20, Khom Pie age 20 (com pie), novh age 17 (noah), Porm age 20 and dream age 20. I love each and every one of them. I will write about them more individually later, but just for the record Sing Khom and Seng por are me favorite.
Speaking of the Lao boys they made Katrina and I lunch today. They went out and bought a duck and lots of other stuff and fed us. I never had duck before and was kind of curious. Sing por laughed at me because I never had duck before. I was hesitant at first because I’ve never seen a duck de-feathered before (Sing por doing the deed) kind of gross, but interesting. There food is so good, but really spicy. Every time they invite me over for food they make special dishes for me because I can’t eat the spicy stuff, although its still spicy. Lao’s just laugh at me! LOL! Seriously my nose runs and my ears are on fire; never had this happen before so I’m very careful how much a take. I will away start out very little and try different things to see what I can handle and what I can’t. You know for boys their freaking good cooks. I seriously love though boys. When Katrina and I went to the beach for the week we just kept thinking about how much we miss the Laos boys and wanted them to come. They don’t have much money so we were thinking of treating them to a weekend at the beach with us. We would pay for the lodging and some of the food, but they would have to pay for the bus ticket and part of the food.
I have first quarter testing this week and hope my kids pass with flying colors. I mostly worried about the lucky five, although Chimnol and Bunthorng are doing great. I thing they have improved a lot since moved up to the front of class. Try Try Net and Sryenut are the same, but at least Try Try Net doesn’t cry when I ask her to write her own name. I think they have learned that I don’t fall for the crying trick. Just because they cry doesn’t mean they get out of school work. Popata is still the same though. She doesn’t pay to much attention in class and that’s hurting her grades. I tried to talk to her dad, but be doesn’t seem to have much control over Popata. He is an engineer and works a lot. He use to pick her up everyday, but now sends and uncle or something. Popata’s dad seems to care if she is doing well, but is not putting forth the effort. I can’t do this all on my own, the parents need to help the child too.
Oh! I think I’m going to change my major to elementary education. I have been thinking about his for sometime and really enjoy what I’m doing here and would love to continue when I come home. All my high school classmates said one day I would become a teacher, but I never thought I would consider it. what do you think?
Oh! and also I got to talk to Gatz last night on the phone really briefly. It was so nice to hear a familiar voice. I miss her so much. We are planning on going to Hong Kong for Christmas for maybe I will go to South Korea. I don’t know, but I do know I don’t want to stay in Phenom Pehn. If I’m going to be on the other side of the world then I better travel. That reminds me Katrina and I are planning on going home though Europe, Paris, Italy and France. I don’t know if we will go to all the places but we will go to at least 3 for sure. I would love to see Paris, OH and Italy. I want to ride in the skinny boats down the water to different shops; FUN!
Random thing; Rithy wanted to hold my hand today. I didn’t know what to say so I just made up accuse to hold my pants because they were to “long.” Even though I was holding my pants he still locked his arm in mine. He is really strange. He has asked me to go on walks with him and get dinner, but I always say I’m to busy. Usually when girls say that they are hinting to the guy, “No,” but to Rithy he tries several times more. I wander how many times I’m going to have to turn him down before he gets the clue. Oh! Just to let you know over here if the guys likes the girl he will ask them to go on walks or such, so don’t think he going to kill me or something.
I will write about he Laos boys later because they are so funny and each one has a different relationship with me. Worth writing about.
Friday, November 2, 2007
November 2
Friday
Why does the world have to be so image conscious? One thing I hate about Cambodia is how they openly say what in on their mind. They have no sense of others feeling. When they think you fat they will simply say it. Take this for instance; G1 (friend of ours; meet through Rithy) said I look like heavy weight champion because I was wearing shorts and a sweatshirt. Info, I just got done playing volleyball and didn’t have time to change from my stinky cloths so I just throw on a sweatshirt. At first I didn’t understand what G1 was trying to say to me, and still couldn’t until Katrina told me what he said. I was so mad and irritated. Oh! And tonight when I got on the moto with Rithy and Ly Chard (Le-Char) the dorm students were making comments. I don’t have to understand their language to know what they are suggesting. All the way home I held back the tears. I didn’t want Rithy bugging me wondering what was wrong.
Not only am I white, but I’m fat too; definitely a head turner for the Khmers. Over here they have one body image; small. Sometimes I wish I could be skinny like all the other girls, but at the same time why would I want to be just like everyone else. I don’t know! But I can tell you that if people keep suggest comments to my weight I will go bulimic. How easy it could be to be the same. I know many people that can stop anytime they want. I think I could do that. I don’t know I’m just really pissed about people commenting about my weight. It’s as if they can’t accept other shapes.
Ok! Just to let you know so none of you worry about me. I’m not actually going to go bulimic. I know it’s a stupid idea and wouldn’t ever do it. ok, bye bye now. Love ya!
P.S. we got our wireless back tonight. I just hope it lasts for awhile.
Friday
Why does the world have to be so image conscious? One thing I hate about Cambodia is how they openly say what in on their mind. They have no sense of others feeling. When they think you fat they will simply say it. Take this for instance; G1 (friend of ours; meet through Rithy) said I look like heavy weight champion because I was wearing shorts and a sweatshirt. Info, I just got done playing volleyball and didn’t have time to change from my stinky cloths so I just throw on a sweatshirt. At first I didn’t understand what G1 was trying to say to me, and still couldn’t until Katrina told me what he said. I was so mad and irritated. Oh! And tonight when I got on the moto with Rithy and Ly Chard (Le-Char) the dorm students were making comments. I don’t have to understand their language to know what they are suggesting. All the way home I held back the tears. I didn’t want Rithy bugging me wondering what was wrong.
Not only am I white, but I’m fat too; definitely a head turner for the Khmers. Over here they have one body image; small. Sometimes I wish I could be skinny like all the other girls, but at the same time why would I want to be just like everyone else. I don’t know! But I can tell you that if people keep suggest comments to my weight I will go bulimic. How easy it could be to be the same. I know many people that can stop anytime they want. I think I could do that. I don’t know I’m just really pissed about people commenting about my weight. It’s as if they can’t accept other shapes.
Ok! Just to let you know so none of you worry about me. I’m not actually going to go bulimic. I know it’s a stupid idea and wouldn’t ever do it. ok, bye bye now. Love ya!
P.S. we got our wireless back tonight. I just hope it lasts for awhile.
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